Becoming the Pin-Up Girl

I'm on a journey from obesity to health.. and I'm hoping to reveal my inner Pin-Up Girl along the way ;-)

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Just rambling

Hi all! Nothing major to report today - just lots of little things that are adding up in my brain. Let's see.. first, my step-sister Barbara, my nephew Nick and their German foreign exchange student Stephanie are all in SF for a few days, visiting from Coeur d'Alene, ID. I'm meeting up with them after work today. I haven't seen Barb in about 2 years, so I'm expecting that she'll do the "omg.. look at you!" freakout that I seem to be getting pretty frequently now. I have to admit that, as embarrassing as it can be, it's still really awesome to get the reaction. The last one I got was from my neighbors that live upstairs. We have different schedules than they do, so we don't see each other that often. The wife, Tammy, asked me "what are you doing?". I had kind of assumed that everyone in the building knew about my WLS.. mostly because our former manager was nosey and liked to gossip. Ok.. second, I'm pretty bummed because Chris' school/work schedule will have him coming home after 10pm Monday thru Thursday. So I'm going to have a lot of evenings by myself. The good news is that he'll have Friday thru Sunday off, so we can do more on the weekend. It's a good trade off - I'm just going to have to entertain myself during the weeknights. Third, I have officially shrunk out of all of my pants. I had to put the only two pairs of slacks that I had in the donate box that's going to Jane. I have a handful of skirts that still fit, so I've been wearing them. It makes me feel really girly to wear skirts and heels, so maybe I'll just buy one pair of slacks. And one pair of jeans maybe. We'll see. Fourth, I have discovered that I am a dumper. I never really posted about this before, but I've had a couple of accidental dumping incidents lately so it's been on my mind. The first one I ever had was on my birthday in February. I stopped at Starbucks on the way to work and ordered my usual sugar-free vanilla latte. I sucked it down, not noticing that they had given me a full-sugar vanilla latte. I still can't believe that I didn't taste the difference. Anyway, by the time I got to work I was sweating, shaking, dizzy, nauseous and I generally felt like I was going to die. Happy birthday to me. I turned right around and went home, hoping that I wouldn't hurl on the train. My latest incident was this weekend at my friend J's place. He ordered Chinese and I ate a few things that I didn't think contained sugar, or much anyway. Boy was I wrong. Within minutes my heart felt like it would beat out of my chest and I was pouring sweat. I sat on the couch and Chris held me until I stopped dumping. When it was over, I was completely exhausted and I had to lie down. We ended up crashing at J's place because I just couldn't get up. I'm definitely thankful to know that my "tool" works - many people aren't so lucky and they get way too liberal with sugar and end up gaining. But I will say that dumping completely fucking sucks and I will be even more careful than I have been about hidden sugars. Fifth, I'm realizing how much more I laugh and smile than I did before my surgery. Life is just so good - I have so much to be thankful for. I can't help but try to share my happiness with the world. Ok - I think that I've rambled enough for now. I'm headed to pick up my sweetie from the BART station. Good night!


Blogger SignGurl said...

Spending nights alone is a bummer. Hopefully you guys will make up for it on the weekends.

I haven't had a dumping experience yet. I'm scared to death that sugar won't affect me and I'll go back to eating ridiculous amounts.

I can't wait to see some new pictures of you and your new svelte self. I can only imagine how great you look.

4:14 AM  
Blogger SignGurl said...

Email me at and I'll send you an invite to my weightloss blog.

3:51 PM  
Blogger Dagny said...

I'm realizing how much more I laugh and smile than I did before my surgery. Life is just so good - I have so much to be thankful for. I can't help but try to share my happiness with the world.

Dang I just love reading your blog! *sniffsniff* gettin' all misty over here. *sniff*

9:43 PM  

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