Who will I be?

My best friend had WLS last August. She's lost from 277 to around 150. At the time that she had the surgery, she was a new mom with a 9 month old son and she was in a very destructive relationship with the baby's father. She ended the relationship a few months ago. It's been really difficult for her - her son's father is a complete psycho-stalker (she had to finally get a restraining order after he threatened her several times) - but she's managed to get out on her own and start building a new life for herself and her child. Would she have had the courage to leave if she had never had WLS? I don't know. Maybe not.

I've read about so many of my fellow WLS bloggers and how dramatically they have changed since WLS. Long-term relationships have ended .. new ones have begun.. people have new-found self-esteem and self-love and it's taken their lives in many wonderful and scary and exciting and completely foreign places. All of this leaves me wondering.. who will I be? How will shedding the "protective" layer of fat change my life, apart from the obvious physical aspects? How will my relationship change? Will Chris look at me differently.. as a person and a partner? Will I look at him differently? I don't think I will, but who's to know? Sometimes I think myself in circles about all of the ways that my body and my life will change. Is that healthy?

As far as the "process" goes, I have another appt for an endoscopy on August 11. Dr. U will take a peak and let me know if the ulcers have healed. I just pray that they do. I haven't taken any NSAIDs at all and I've taken the Protonix religiously, so I think everything will be ok. I have the sleep study this Friday night. I know it's going to suck, but if it will help me get approved by the insurance a little easier, it'll be worth it. I had my appt with the nutritionist .. to be honest, it was disappointing. She knew very little about the post-op diet and kept stressing "good carbs".. which I'll be consuming very very little of post-op. I expected to hear "protein first" and "chew chew chew" and "sip sip sip", but I didn't hear any of that. Thank God for the internet. Even more disappointing was the fact that I missed my psych appt because I LOCKED MY KEYS IN MY CAR after my nutritionist appt. (Why yes, I am THAT blonde) Thankfully the psychiatrist was very cool about it. I had a horrible vision of him deciding then that I would not be a good candidate because I was an airhead and couldn't keep a simple appointment. Anyway, I'll reschedule some time this next month. Sooo.. if all goes as planned (and it so rarely does), Dr. U should be able to send off for insurance approval after August 11. Keep your fingers crossed!