Where, oh where, has the Pin-up Girl gone?

This is an email that I sent to a very good friend today.. it explains everything that I've been avoiding posting to my blog. I haven't forgotten about any of you. Life's just been tough.

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"Hi - omg.. I didn't mean to make you worry. I did get your text and have been meaning to call.. you know how that goes. I know I haven't blogged in 2 months - believe me, it's been on my mind. The major reason is - I was very sick for about a month. The week before Christmas, I passed 3 kidney stones and ended up with such a bad kidney infection that it took 3 antibiotics to finally kill it. I've been referred to a urologist, who ordered a CAT scan to see how many more stones I have. Looked like one to the tech, but it could be two more. My regular doctor also took me off of glucophage, which is a diabetes drug that I've taken for several years for Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. It's basically an endocrine disorder that makes your body resist the use of insulin.. causing obesity (shock, right?!) among other things and it basically screws up all of the hormones involved in your reproductive system, making fertility very very difficult. Since the surgery, the weight loss has reversed many of the PCOS symptoms, but it doesn't reverse the disorder. So anyway.. her rationale was .."you're not diabetic.. you don't need it".. which is not the reason I was taking it. I take it to help my body use insulin more effectively.. keeping me from being a diabetic and keeping me FERTILE! So long story short.. I've gained 15 pounds back. I'm back up to 180 and very scared. I have an appt on Feb. 12 with an OB/GYN that I've never seen. I'm PRAYING that she knows enough about PCOS to put me back on Glucophage.. that should help me take the extra weight back off. And now that I've got energy back since being so sick.. I think I'm ready to start exercising again. For about 3 weeks, I could hardly get off of the couch. I missed almost 3 weeks of work which was pretty financially devastating..especially at Christmas. Oh - and we had friends from LA in town during New Year's.. something that had been planned for months that I didn't have the heart to cancel. BUT - I (and I should say WE because Chris was just the best partner I could ever wish for during the whole thing) made it through. Yesterday we celebrated our 3 year anniversary together and Thursday is my 34th (eek!) birthday. We're down in T-town celebrating my b-day and my nephew William's very first birthday, which is today. My brother is such a proud daddy.. it's very cool to watch him with his son.

So - that's the story. I promise that I will call when I can sit down and take a minute. It's just been tough.. being away from work for so long.. getting caught up.. then I got to hire a third agent (which is wonderful!).. it's kept me super super busy.

I just haven't known how to post all of this in my blog. Maybe I'll just copy this email and post it. In fact - that is what I'll do.

Thanks for being concerned - I love you guys and miss you all so very much!"

xoxo Danyele