The Pin-Up Girl in ONE-derland

* 198 *  You had to know that I couldn't stay off of the scale.. LOL!  Whew - I finally made it.  I'm excited and really relieved.  I don't know why I stil feel self-doubt when it comes to weightloss.  I know I'm doing what I'm supposed to, so why do I sometimes think "That's it - I'm going to start gaining now - I just know it"  I guess it's hard to fight years of feeling defeated when it came to my weight.  It meant a lot to me to get under 200 - I haven't been here since I was a sophomore in high school.  Now I feel like my goal weight is achievable.  Why did I not see that at 204?  I have no idea.

I had an interesting conversation with my coworker Liz yesterday.  We were talking about clothes and she mentioned that I needed to get new jeans because the ones I was wearing were too big on me.  I told her "yeah, these are 16s" and I pulled them away from my waist (yes, I have one now!) and they were several inches too big.  I told her "I could get some 14s but I just haven't wanted to spend the money".  And she said "wow - 14 is a totally normal size".  I had to laugh - I guess I'm "normal" now.  Who woulda thunk it?